Tuesday, August 18, 2009 Y 5:15 AM
yet another bad day... i really wonder why recently there are so many bad days.... Really feel like shouting out tons of %*#$&^ but... *SIGHS*.... today my mood was totally ruined because of a few reasons.... 1stly, my %*#$ing Flu came back..... cb keep sneezing the whole day... damn dulan... 2ndly, today i was supposed to go repair my laptop, but it costs $1000++!!!! Repair wad shit liddat....!! 3rdly, i've tried asking *frens* to accompany me to go repair my laptop today, but apparently everyone is too busy for that...(ok they need to study and i'm being abit selfish here, but still...). and once again, i've realised how little frens i have... or none even.... and seriously lah, people come and show that they care and sympathize with me, please dun just do it because u sympathize with me and go back to the usual after awhile... it &(%ing hurts each time u know... 4thly, i've come to realise that no one in my family understands me or for that matter anyone... My father... only knows how to pay lip service... whatever he promises he never keeps.... and as i've been in a bad mood recently, he keeps doing things that pisses me off... And as for my brother, haiz.... serious attitude problem...(i've been trying not sound super pissed up till now). 1. shows no respect at all... and when i say he doesn't understand me, he really doesn't.... like for example, this just happened, as it has been up till now, i'm in a bad mood, and when ppl are in a bad mood obviously they are moody, and of course when ppl talk to moody ppl the reply is obviously not something friendly... and when i answered him, he just showed some attitude and walked off... seriously WTF! lah... can't even see that i'm in a bad mood still wan show attitude... F him lah!.... as for my mother, lets just say shes gotten alot better since last time : }..
Ok even though i made my family sound so bad, i guess i've got a few bad points about myself also.... recently my father has become very naggy, and i guess its for my own good, but i've been feeling really irritated by him and don't appreciate his concerns... i know its my bad, but i duno why i just cant seem to help it, i get irritated and pissed off easily by him... and i really dun wan that. i know that he cares for me also, but i just dun seem to appreciate it... God help me pls... my temper has shortened recently and i get angry/irritated/moody/pissed off easily... and i really dont like it or want it this way...
